A realization - I HAVE BODY FAT.

30% body fat to be exact. THAT’S ALMOST 1/3 OF MY BODY. I’m 129 lbs - 89 lbs of my body is muscle and 30 lbs is fat. It’s unhealthy and a realization that I need to turn my life around.

My problem was, I never thought I was that fat. It was always, just a little chubbiness here and there, big boobs, large butt. I was always comfortable with, they’re bigger than me, so it’s okay. But do I really want to get to a point where I’m the biggest girl in the room and then turn around? I can’t hide anymore. I’m in the “very poor” zone and I need to get it together. I know that I will feel better about myself and have more confidence in myself.

I’m going to convince my family to do the same. I made my mom test her body fat and it was 58%! I want her to live and long and healthy life, so I hope this is a wake-up call.

Its frightening because I’m not much bigger than most of my friends. If I’m at such an unhealthy body weight, I can only imagine my peers who are bigger/heavier than me.

It only makes sense to do this now, with all the changes happening in my life. No more college drinking, binge eating, and lazy excuses. Maybe then I can have the confidence to surround myself with more positive energies. I’m fed up with those who put me down - people who don’t put equal amounts of energy into relationships to make it work. People who make me feel worse about myself. I have enough negativity, it needs to go away.

Changes! Ch-ch-ch-changes are coming!